Multiple of 2: The Calm before the Storm

Well...This is it, I think it is safe to say I made it through the last pregnancy (for those who did not know; yes, this is the last baby Miller from us, don't even ask). I sit here and type this with many mixed emotions, some including fear, joy, happiness and most of all LOVE. I must admit I am scared for tomorrow, the unknown is brutal and as many of you know the planner in me HATES, days like this. I question; will the c-section go okay, will I be okay, will baby 2 make it out okay, how will Isaac react, what is Isaac doing, Is he crying for me, Will I be crying for him. When I stop to think about my entire world changing, the long 9 months of preparation don't seem long enough and I am wishing for another load of laundry to do to keep me busy.

I found myself cherishing every single moment with Isaac today and part of me didn't even want him to take a long nap, (that never happens). He is my LIFE and it is so hard to leave him and explain to him what is happening. I just kissed him goodnight and could barely get through it without crying. I said going into this pregnancy that I did it for one reason and one reason only, to give Isaac the best gift I could and that was a brother or sister. He has slowly made progress through all of this and I think he understands that someone is coming, but he surly doesn't get that it is for life. He will say things like, "see baby", "baby come", "rock baby", "baby crying", which is far better than where we started which was, "baby live at Nana, Papa, and Em's." We have talked a lot about how mommy has to go get the baby and he will say that but I don't think he gets it.

This pregnancy was difficult to say the least. To be honest it has worn me out, and tested my limits. I know I am blessed to have a healthy baby growing but it was a long haul to get here. A BIG Thank you to all our family, and friends for their love, support and patience with us through these 9 months. I especially could NEVER have done it without the love felt every day. One last request, keep the prayers coming for a smooth recovery and a healthy baby. Stay tuned to the blog for the big announcement and pictures!
Love,
Katie